I have been neglecting my blog. Everyone gets busy. We all have those things that we let slip through the cracks a bit. I thought I would do a not so quick summary for you guys to let you know where things stand with me. It will be a series of posts, outlining where I stand. Here goes.
I have kind of been all over the place. I got back to New England and got lonely. I don't have nearly as many friends there. It's cold and I got a bit confused. I am not sure if it is the pressure of my work load, or if it is just a natural progression or phase that people/I will go through. But, I started thinking a lot about a relationship. Of course, being all over the place means that I think about a relationship and I actively do nothing to change my position. I am still dating/sleeping with more than one guy. The only difference is, I get my feelings hurt when they don't have feelings for me or if they don't take me seriously. It was time to take a step back and evaluate what it is I want. But, after doing that for about 5 minutes, I remembered the more important question. What do I need?
I need a minute to breath. I need to stop getting emotionally involved and look at me. I realized that in being single and dating multiple men, I have just become wrapped up in multiple relationships instead of just one. The beauty is the honesty and diversity. I have been honest with these men and I get to sleep with/enjoy the company of more than one guy, but my head is starting to spin. I have a select few men that I really do have feelings for, then I have this river of guys that I have trouble keeping names straight with. There is this hierarchy that has naturally come about. I am hoping after I write this series of posts and think for a bit, I will start to figure out what I want and what I need.
- Poly Amory
- I am the product-child of the Women's Lib movement. I have a grade A education, a promising career and no immediate goal for children or a spouse. I will be 30 this year and I have spent many years in monogamous relationships. In and out of 1 to 2 year relationships, I always dated with the goal of meeting someone special. Most of the time I didn't date. Most of the time I found myself falling into relationship after relationship. These relationships were doomed to fail. They were all built on expectations that were, for me, unattainable. I love meeting new people. I find sex enjoyable and empowering and I am not happy when I am monogamous. So, after my last break-up, after taking some time to grieve, I decided to cut my societal puppet strings and get back in the game. I set out on a mission to spend the Summer of 2010 dating as many men as possible. My only initial criteria was attraction. My only limitation was - no love and no structured relationships. This is my date by date tale of what life can be like outside of the goals of relationships and love.
- ► 2011 (78)
- ▼ October (18)