I think I may be having a slight mid-life crisis. A hot Japanese girl, who I turned down when she was only 19, came by one of my shows last week and not so gently reminded me several times that she was now 21!
For a moment I was at a loss for words or at least a good counterpoint.
She was standing there looking her absolute hottest while non-verbally asking, "So what now?"...and I had nothing.
This is an interesting dilemma. I don't know how much insight I can offer in this situation. You are a man, and while I love and respect men, I try not to attempt to understand them. I have enough trouble trying to understand myself and pinpoint my own motives.
What I will say is that I appreciate this momentary glimpse into the mind of a "mid-life" man.